Well, I have to admit this is not the first subject I intended to tackle when starting my web log. I thought it might be a bit more philosophical, a new truth that God had revealed to me, or maybe a short story about friendship found in the most unlikely of places, but not this. Lord, no not this.
The other day I was in a silly mood, which is the norm for me, or so I am told. I was taking a short break from my work to add a few things to my MySpace page and I noticed that a couple of my nieces had added me as a friend. I lived up to my reputation and without thinking about where the conversation would go next I posted the following to Emma’s comments section.
Okay, okay… I guess I can ignore it no longer.
I have a balding spot.
I saw it in a video, therefore it exists.
Thanks again for “Pointing” it out to me.
I am going off to a corner to pout. TTYL!
At this point there may be the need for a little back story.
One day while I was sitting in the kitchen, in blissful ignorance, my niece came up behind me. This in and of itself is not too frightening It was what she did next that made me feel like an actor in a B horror movie. Suddenly there was a finger making circles on the back of my head and with a small giggle she pronounced, “You have a BALD spot.” What bothered me most was not the giggle or even the word bald being used in relation to my head. It was the size of the circle she was etching into my head.
For quite a while after that day it became a mission for her to keep me humble. At every meeting there was a giggle as she touched the back of my head. Occasionally that word was used in order to heighten the effect. Over time I got used to it. No, I never had the guts to look at it. I was happy in the little psychedelic dream world that I had created where I would never age, go bald or be too old to do BMX Freestyle.
Sure I knew that someday I would go gray and not be as fit as I had been when I was young. But those days would be years off still, wouldn’t they? I mean, come on, I am only forty three and three quarters years old.
I always said that when I went gray or bald I would just let it happen. I still feel that way, kinda. I will not color my hair (says the man with four gray hairs), I will not get plugs or grafts and I will NEVER wear a toupé. And I realize that it would look pretty bad if I was in the middle of a cool trick on my bike and my comb-over caught the wind and made my head resemble a sail boat.
The other day I was watching a video made while I was up at Spring Hill Camp with my friends from the youth group at church. I saw myself in the background of one of the shots. I was facing the other way and for the first time I saw the thing I had been trying to deny. No longer could I deny what my eyes had seen, which brings us up to the post I made in Emily’s comments area and the realization that came while writing about it just now.
We all have our flaws. Sometimes we try to ignore that there is a problem, sometimes we go on with our lives pretending that there is truly nothing wrong. That is, until a friend or sister in Christ walks up one day and calls attention to it. At that point we can do one of two things. We can face the issue and deal with it head on, or we can continue in our denial. But the plain truth is that whether we accept that there is a problem or not, even if we don’t look at it ourselves, someone can see it. And to them it as plain as the hair, or lack thereof, on your head.
So if you think that you can continue in your sin because you think you are the only one who knows about it, think again. Sin has its way of being found out and one day, whether it is here on Earth or on the other side, you will have to deal with it. It is better to learn to deal with it than to try to keep sweeping it under the rug (no pun intended). Because people close to you will look up to you. They will follow you. And they just may trip and stumble over the lumps in your rug.
Something to remember when you are dealing with sin is that we are all human and we have all failed. Do not judge yourself or others for their flaws. Go to the Judge who shows mercy and grace. God will, through His word, His spirit and even those around you who are obedient to His word, teach you the appropriate way to deal with the sin and how to be freed from its bondage.
P.S. I guess writing this blog ended up teaching me something after all.